RANT RANT RANT

SO.............................

I have not blogged in a while, life happens.
But yesterday I was just having such a "woah is me, life is not fair day" that I thought this is the purpose of a Blog and I am going to complain about it now !

So Where to start ?

1.  I WANT TO BE A MOM
- back that up.  For semantics sake, yes I am a mom, yes I had a child.  But I mean I want to be a mom to a living child here on earth and I want this like, yesterday.  How ever it happens, weather its adoption, me giving birth or someone dropping a baby on my doorstep at this point I will take it.
Its very hard to watch EVERYONE I know, and lots of people I don't have babies, and the real kicker is that some of these people don't even want the kids they have.  ( at least they bitch about their kids at every turn )
Do you know how much I long to hear a baby cry ? How much I want to change a diaper ? How much I want to take pictures of my children ?
And all you do is complain...... this comment is not for everyone. Its for a few specific people I know who are complaining and then "magically they show up pregnant again"
Like if you don't want more kids use Birth control !!! Your breaking my heart.......

I know plenty of good people having children right now, this post is not directed at you. Its directed at the fact that life is not fair and there is NOTHING I can do about it, today. 


2.  I am having some ear problems.  This is recent as in the last two weeks.  I have a Disease that I was diagnosed with in 2009 called :

Meniere’s disease

Attacks or episodes of Meniere's disease often start without warning. They may occur daily, or as rarely as once a year. The severity of each episode can vary.

Meniere's disease usually has four main symptoms:

• Drop in hearing
• Pressure in the ear
• Ringing or roaring in the affected ear
• Vertigo

Yeah it sucks - again-- Nothing I can do about it until It decides to go away
Except I am deaf, cant hear and the hearing loss is so bad my Drs want me to get a hearing aid.

WTF ?

Yeah
So those are my complaints. That's where I was yesterday.
I prayed to God for patience, understanding, and Grace.
I guess he was all out.