I have not blogged in a while, life happens.
But yesterday I was just having such a "woah is me, life is not fair day" that I thought this is the purpose of a Blog and I am going to complain about it now !
So Where to start ?
1. I WANT TO BE A MOM
- back that up. For semantics sake, yes I am a mom, yes I had a child. But I mean I want to be a mom to a living child here on earth and I want this like, yesterday. How ever it happens, weather its adoption, me giving birth or someone dropping a baby on my doorstep at this point I will take it.
Its very hard to watch EVERYONE I know, and lots of people I don't have babies, and the real kicker is that some of these people don't even want the kids they have. ( at least they bitch about their kids at every turn )
Do you know how much I long to hear a baby cry ? How much I want to change a diaper ? How much I want to take pictures of my children ?
And all you do is complain...... this comment is not for everyone. Its for a few specific people I know who are complaining and then "magically they show up pregnant again"
Like if you don't want more kids use Birth control !!! Your breaking my heart.......
I know plenty of good people having children right now, this post is not directed at you. Its directed at the fact that life is not fair and there is NOTHING I can do about it, today.
2. I am having some ear problems. This is recent as in the last two weeks. I have a Disease that I was diagnosed with in 2009 called :
Meniere’s disease
Attacks or episodes of Meniere's disease often start without warning. They may occur daily, or as rarely as once a year. The severity of each episode can vary.
Meniere's disease usually has four main symptoms:
- Drop in hearing
- Pressure in the ear
- Ringing or roaring in the affected ear
- Vertigo
Yeah it sucks - again-- Nothing I can do about it until It decides to go away
Except I am deaf, cant hear and the hearing loss is so bad my Drs want me to get a hearing aid.
WTF ?
Yeah
So those are my complaints. That's where I was yesterday.
I prayed to God for patience, understanding, and Grace.
I guess he was all out.
